Something to read as I work on my next novel.
Sometimes, I think of myself as a fairy.
A fairy is so small, it can only feel one emotion at a time. Its tiny little mind simply cannot handle more than one thought, distraction, or task. Not that it ever overloads. No. One thing pushes out the last thing, and va-va-voom, Fairy leaves a long, glittery trail of thoughts undone.
Quickly, I realized my quirky little ways didn’t make me a fairy.
They made me ADD.
My mind is a constant whir of thoughts, daydreams, to-do lists, reminders, flash-backs, and songs that have stuck. It is never silent. My mind wakes me in the middle of the night with its clicking and buzzing.
I think of things I don’t want to think about. I dwell on memories I’d like to forget. I solve problems that aren’t even mine.
I envy men.
Blogging, writing, YouTube(?)-ing are all very solo activities.
YouTubers have learned to branch out and form collaborations with each other, torturously forcing themselves to change out of their week-old pj’s and suffering through conversation with a warm-skinned, breathing human.
But! They found a solution! A way to collaborate without ever having to be in the same room: the _____ Does My Voiceover tag.
Which, in essence, is kinda sad because Mechanical Ninjineer is a really cool person and may even be my twin, so having real-life conversation with that certain human wouldn’t have been so bad.
